Tick Tick Tick...
Well, Mitch and I have been married over two and half years now, and I can feel the proverbial "biological clock" ticking away. Although I've WANTED to have a baby for a while now, I feel like I'm finally READY to be one now.
Over the last couple of years that we have been married, we've watched our brothers start families with their wives, and felt "left out" in a way. But due to our financial situation, my lack of stable job, and our crappy apartment in a sketchy neighbourhood we knew that we couldn't bring a child into our lives when we could barely take care of ourselves.
Then, one day, we had an older couple stay at our newly built house, (in a very safe neighbourhood), and we were discussing becoming parents. The gentleman told us, "Guys, there is never a perfect time to have a baby; there's always going to be bills to pay, and unexpected uprising in your lives, careers, etc. If you wait for that perfect time you'll never have children. Just choose a time where you hope everything will be settled, and stick to it no matter what." Well, I thought he was crazy at the time, but I realized that there didn't seem to be a teaching job available for me (lots of partial contracts but nothing stable, forever), and so Mitch and I decided that we'd start trying in Fall 2011. Obviously, that time is fast approaching, and I couldn't be more thrilled!
It's strange to think that I actually want to give up my free time, a tidy spotless house, some independence, and at least a year of my career, for this little thing that doesn't even exist yet. But I honestly can't wait to willing give up those things for a baby to love with everything in me.
Mitch is ready too. He turned 28 on St. Patrick's Day, and I asked him, "When you were a little kid, thinking about what you'd have and where you'd be in life at the age of 28, is there anything missing?" And of course he said that the only thing different than what he thought of, is that he's not a dad yet. Oh, and don't let him know I said this, but he gets all teary-eyed whenever he sees a dad with his babies on TV.
One of our good friends in pregnant right now, and hearing about the morning sickness, the itchy skin, the mood swings, etc. just makes me more excited to go through the ups and downs along the way to mommyhood.
I truly believe that God has put me on this wonderful planet to become a mom; to love, to teach, to discipline, and to guide my children to live as empowered, confident people. I can't wait to start this journey! 6 months and counting!
Photo Credit Goes to Melanie Keenan Photography. Check out this incredibly talented and inspiring mom at her blog at www.melaniekeenanphotography.com
